Meet after two years

 Interviewer: A cis
respondents were: the moon
2009   8 10 May, he sent me to the airport, rush to hug goodbye, I said to him: two decades after the meet. And then without looking to flee the waiting room, when my sight is blurred. sat on the plane, has been silent tears flow, flight attendants come again and again, I smile again and again in tears, told her nothing.
Two days ago, I embarked on the voyage, to his city. from 96 years to know where he is, I have been looking forward to until 13 years after the trip. and friends negotiate better travel dates, booked tickets and gave him information. I asked him to help set the hotel, and friends return ticket. He asked me the purpose of this trip, I say friends, I did not tell him that I was away for him. plane about to land, the heart of a calm start panic, I do not know what kind of smile to his face not seen for 20 years. I shoot with both hands and face again and again so that they are not so rigid, the natural point. exported, my eyes blurred after the sunglasses, did not see 20 years later met his face.
bus ride to his, and his car was borrowed, and I blame him, no car is not designed to receive, I can take a taxi to go downtown. He carefully to say that promised you to pick, I will come. I am speechless, he was a serious person, 20 years ago is. riding the bus, the sweat has not stopped, the heat, no air conditioning in the car, and then with tension, I sat beside him helpless. He told me that I appeared in the elevator, he will know that I am, though I took my sunglasses. Along the way we have a western section of the East, 20 years ago and 20 years , it has been happily chatting, I can not look into his eyes, not daring to meet his gaze, I dodge, confusion with.
we fell in love over the last century, it was 20 years ago. when We did three days, he and I at the same table, the puppy love. then we have to study up on the early study hall, and he always picked me up the morning, at night to send me. by him after school with, a bunch of guys around him play . fall into the wild to steal to eat roasted corn, winter snow snowman snowball fight to the river, spring, Spring outing to the countryside, do not have tickets to the cinema to watch movies (his father is a film company manager, his face is the ticket), then section of time, a simple naive, innocent and happy. live a few months later, my father found out, he quietly dropped out to help me do a repeat, so he and I were ushered. One night, Repeat three days, he did not plan to focus on high school, frustrated, asked best friend forwarded me a letter, the details I do not remember, just remember that I started a long wait.
we were talking to each other's experience of 20 years, carefully calculating how long we have separated in the end, in the end how many years have not seen In 1996 he graduated from college here, he was admitted in 1992 University High School in 1991 in the key repeat a year, in September 1988 he went to high school reading. Yes, the summer of 1988, respectively, from the summer of 2009 to the present, we have not seen a full 20 years. we were counting, counting the , with a smile hh20 years have flashed by, we have reached middle age.
91 years I went to the provincial capital to study, after graduating from relatives working arrangements to the south on May .96 father was dying, I went home to live for two weeks, her father in the hospital, he told me that I had puppy love, and that if still worried about that young man, you can find him. father said he was a nice guy. I was surprised, although I've been to his house several times, He has not been to my house, ah, what a good father, how do you know of others? father told me, I study up on the early-morning study do not trust him, will quietly follow behind me, he saw a boy often accompanied me.
because holiday is limited, I do not have time to go to his house looking for him. a half months after his father died, I once again go home funeral, stayed at home in January. From there, students go home and wait to know that he has graduated distribution of work, I always wanted to go to his home. in accordance with the local customs, there are loved ones died, not a month, not at liberty to other people's homes. until his father passed away in January, I and friends went to his home, his parents said that two days before he went to a coastal city, to report for work units go. his mother gave him my mailing address, accidentally, I copied the wrong house number, received the letter I wrote to him, is a few years.
year after year, I waiting, looking, until he was a husband, father, I was single. does not fit, I want to find him, I want to see him. many a night, even the dreams I have been looking for him. Since the separation with his I found my life is him, If his, the body also belong, and I refused to .1996 of a another person that got his address, I wrote several letters to him, gave him sent my photograph, but has yet to receive his reply. I find him through the 114 telephone units, colleagues said he was not here, but did not tell me, when he was on assignment in Japan.
1999 I was sister married, I went home, brother home in the back of his house. My sister and shopping, the crowd pass by, I seemed to see him. I looked back to see him, not a man, next to have her. At that time my mind went blank, my sister and talk to me can be heard. I told myself, I got the wrong person.
1999 in the fall, I left the original unit, to another city to work and live. a drunk driving , so I struggled to the edge of death. from the ICU ward out how I am lucky to be alive. and I once again looking for him, I'm afraid I someday sudden death, to never see the cherished him.
lying in bed, once again to find his unit through the 114 phone, but fortunately, he was still the original unit, this time to find him. I am excited to follow him on the phone, did not say I have just from the dead line on the back, did not say I was single. He said he had received my letter, and said he went to Japan two years, the letter is received after a few years, but also casually laugh at me, was wrong building . He said he married his wife is a nurse. I wish him, on the edge of death came just for me, to live is happy, so I was too late before I asked him why, why not come to me, as long as he is happy, as long as his health, as long as he happy with not with me, no longer important.
days of hospitalization a little long, lying in bed one day, I sent a message to him, and soon he came to the phone, he told me on the phone, so I will not contact him again. He would not finish, there is a woman fiercely on the phone told me that he was a family man. I feel very confused because I did not say anything ambiguous words. But in that case, it is not contacted.
more than a year later, I received a B in the pursuit of men. B and my friends for many years, B parents and sister have emigrated to foreign countries to B he still remain in the country. because the conditions are good in all aspects, the pursuit of B, particularly large number of people, but B did not fancy, with the exception of my love at first sight. that after the accident, B heard the news the night I drove to town to take care of me for three months. I told B separated the two, two hours drive away, every weekend, B, over here. along with the B a few years, or to split end, B is like marriage However, because there are people hidden in my heart, I can not agree. breaking up, B immigrants, and I went to B to mobilize the city.
and start from scratch. I have long used a person's life, work accounted for all my time .2008 Ching Ming, the 12th anniversary of the death of my father, I go home to his father grave, and found lost contact with the junior high school students, one with his best friend, the people in our local hospital is very well-known surgical doctor. As we live witnesses, the doctor chatted about him, I did not meet him with emotion, feeling life has gone to such a hurry. The doctor told me to be his number, I had, after being scolded his wife to delete his number, but I promise to go back to the doctors look for numbers.
found him again through the 114, the doctor's phone to tell him. the phone, he suddenly asked, your birthday is coming is not it? I am stunned His father died after a birthday I will not come out for so many years I do not remember birthdays. rarely remember him. I asked him how he knew, he said that you had a birthday ah. Thank you, he remembers . He added my MSN, one day at noon, he and I talked for two hours on MSN, so many years of misunderstanding, wait, hate, all over. After that, we seldom contact, almost no contact, because I do not want to affect his life. as long as his health was happy to connect, no matter how far away, he has been in my heart.
since knew he was there, I always want to see that with his city. I have several girlfriends met online, talked a lot together, the far apart has not had a chance to meet early this year, I propose to his city together, we all respond to the In 2009 July, we set out. to His message asked that I go a few days whether he is in, he quickly wrote back, saying that the. In this way, he and I finally meet again 20 years later the. to him for help booking hotels, check in the downstairs He has been kept to see me sweat, just like the front to the key, and go to open air-conditioned room. He was a careful man, used to be, it is now. to the room, although the air temperature is very low, but I sweat more, tension again after 20 years and his alone, I do not know what to say. the air flowing my uneasiness, he kept busy to see me, let me stop and rest. I sat across from him on the bed, away from the He far, close to the heart of his desire.
is his first to break the embarrassing scene, I leaned in front of him, returning to the embrace us back 20 years ago. He held my face, light light kiss. I close my eyes, like the first time and his fear of kissing that (20 years ago, the first time he kissed me, I worry about for a long time, for fear there will be kids), I hugged him, for fear of He ran away, eyes closed tightly I fear this is a dream. I asked him over and over again, why not come to me, why I look so long? He sighed.
20 years ago, we have no trouble, and I promised him grow up, will give him, as his woman. At that time I really thought I could grow up to become women .20 years of his I did not become a woman of his .20 years ago, we do not know; 20 years later is that we can not.
he took us to a famous scenic spots to eat, we have a photo opportunity for the first time his life, not me, and he alone, was he and I, and my friends. sit at his side, he was 20 years ago, my big boy Who Loved favorite, now separated by 20 years time, he was no longer belongs to me.
walk in the city belonging to him, feel his breath air, listening to his familiar voice, though the first time, but without any strangeness, like previous life had been there. I am a person recognized bed, a strange place to always sleep, I close the business would prefer to return the same day. very strange, in this city, in this room, I sleep safely. is because of him, because finally found it. In the future, I no longer around to find him in a dream?
To leave the car driving on the highway along the coast, I have a lot of time in silence, he gave me about the scenery along the way, I perfunctory him., respectively, the time was approaching, my heart began to faint pain, inhibit the mood joking with him. asked him after the funeral where the dead, He said he would be buried at sea, I said yes, then I came here to see the sea you can see him. He asked where I was buried, and I said to the funeral home, and he asked Why, I say you always have to go home after the bar, you can see my ah. We smiled at each phase. He said, too far away, to fly more than three hours, see the side not easy, we only see one side for 20 years. I said, determined to not afraid of much, and only three hours of flying, as long as want to see, it is easy. I also told him that I want to live to 100 years old, so I can see him three times. Airport near me, I stretch the left hand him, and he firmly holds, we are silent, until I get off.
get out, I said to him, hug it. In the rush to embrace, I told him goodbye, after the meet. Information: I went to, very hot, 36 degrees, the calf pain, heart pain. for you, change your life path I am a sinner; As for me, you are my first love love eternity. After I will not contact you, once again deep inside your collection now! I wish you health, happiness, happy!
send this information, I again choked. get the airport bus, the heart more and more pain, no longer can not be made, into endless tears. Maybe this is my last meet with his life, he did not know, I'm still single.
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